food for thought...

wasn't in a good mood the past few days. just got better and arghs. the internet connection had to be down. been trying to log into CORS webbie for hours. since yesterday night, to be precise. stupid earthquake! of allll days.. ARGHS. FINALLY managed to log in 5min ago. got outbidded for stats! minimum bid is 202. hai. i thought i will pay only 100 points for it. maybe i should just major in EL. =x

been thinking about these recently. or maybe for a long time already. haha. but i couldn't get an answer. or maybe i had an answer already but it's somewhere in my head, waiting to be surfaced. haha. anyway, here goes:

1) providing long term happiness for someone or pursuing happiness for oneself which might be short-lived.

2) a future that is almost certain or a future full of uncertainties and doubts, even the present is doubtful at times.

3) being with somebody because of duty, guilt and responsibility or being with someone just because you like/love him/her, even though you know very well that you may get nothing in return.

will things turn out this way if i hadn't reciprocated ? but i haven't regretted and i never will.

ahhh. just had dinner but my mouth was itching for more food. i couldn't control and downed a sardine puff from Old Chang Kee. guilt-ridden now. how am i going to fit into the top for the dinner tomorrow!?