hmm..

i guess.. this is it. after 4 months of struggle, we broke up. this time, it's for real. it was a mutual thing. i thought i would be ready to face it. apparently, i was never ready. i never expected that i would cry my guts out. it was a heart-wrenching moment for me, even though the fault lies mostly with me. i felt i had let him down; let his love down. it is today that i finally understood the true meaning of SACRIFICE. it was hard to let go, especially for him i guess, but both of us must do it. honestly, he deserved someone really better. someone other than me is better. and i have also understood what it really felt like to lose something. right now, i feel that half of me had been ripped away from my body. and you'll CHERISH, really start to learn to how to cherish the people around you.

i have to look ahead and move on. i don't know how, i think i will manage somehow. i must be strong and do this even if i have to do it alone.

19/04/04~25/12/06