curse me to depths of hell. z.

i never felt so alone in my life. i guess, finally, i managed to say it out. been struggling to do so. cuz i'm unsure now if it's the right thing to do. seriously don't know. when i said it out, i felt a little regretful. making everyone feel miserable and hurting people's feelings ain't a nice feeling. terrible terrible terrible. but there seem to be no turning back. have i done the right thing ?

getting dizzy here. i need to sleep. nitenite.