zzz.

i think i caught the "char" bug. haha.

was helping a friend with her group assignment. we talked and she said she was too busy to even go to the library to find books for her paper. she told me about the things she needed to do and she will be having tests next week.

i told her struggling is part and parcel of life and when she overcome this, she will benefit and rejoice having crossed a hurdle. that had me thinking about my own situation:

have i struggled enough? or have i really struggled at all?

i was reminded of what char had told me - "life is passing me by like a blur." haha. i think this is what i'm feeling right now. i feel like i'm living each day without a sense of purpose or a goal in mind. i feel like i'm studying just for the sake of getting good grades. where have my passion for psychology gone to? where does my passion actually lie? i feel like i have too many things to do till i've become not focused. others seem to be working really hard but i don't feel i'm doing enough.

*cries* i need to find my drive, focus and purpose.